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|Sunday, August 2nd, 2009|
Is there anyone reading this that is hiding this side of yourself from a spouse?
Also, honestly, I'm not sure what I am. I've been trying to read more on the topic, now that I find myself a part of it. I don't think it's just crossdressing, because it's not just about wearing the clothes, it's about wanting to BE Odette. But I'm not looking to make a permanent change, either. It's fetishistic in its way, because it's definitely sexual, but it's not JUST sexual.
I suppose being confused is pretty common? :)
|Saturday, August 1st, 2009|
I apologise if you see this more than once, I'll be posting it as an introduction in a couple of communities, I hope that's okay.
This is the second of two anonymous journals I have up. The other is a more straightforward (if an anonymous journal can be called that) exploration of my rakish past (and possible present). But having started reading some journals of people who are just starting to explore their fascination with TS/TG I finally decided to make a journal simply for that.
I honestly don't know where it will lead. My relationship (married) situation is not one I would want to change, and she has no idea about this part of me. Because of that, exploring this side of myself in reality is very limited, at least as far as I can see right now. But I've had an online female persona for years and it's always been very important to me, and there is part of me that really wants a chance to be her out in the world.
I know all communities have their own rules and idiosyncrasies, and being new to admitting I belong to this one means I'll probably make some mistakes of etiquette. For those I apologise in advance, I promise my search is sincere and though I might stumble it matters to me that I keep learning.
Hi there, if you're reading this. My name is Odette.
|Wednesday, June 3rd, 2009|
|Wednesday, February 18th, 2009|
I'm off out dressed tomorrow night. I'm going to see a band called 'Ever Since The Lake Caught Fire'
which has one of my work colleagues in it.
And I'm angsting a little. This will be the first time in a VERY long time that I've been out somewhere where (a) I don't know everyone - Candy is going and so are some other people from work but there will still be lots. And lots. Of people there who I don't know and (b) it's a non-transgender-oriented evening. So, yeah, a bit nervous.
Of course, part of the nervousness comes out in 'what am I going to wear' angst. But there is a definite butterflies-in-the stomach feeling for which lack of clothing doesn't account.
I'm sure everything will be fine - for a start, it'll be dark inside the venue and for another, I'll be with someone who is about 6'16" tall. Not that I'm expecting him to wade in if anything does start to happen but having someone like that around has got to give people pause for thought. And it means there will be someone there who will be taller than I am, even in my heels. Current Mood: nervous
|Thursday, January 22nd, 2009|
About last night...
I had a lot of fun last night. I was nervous before I went, because I didn't know what to expect and the previous experiences I've had with social groups have been pretty bloody awful - the worst one was an evening where everyone sat around talking about football and cars. I knew that I didn't want that again. Unfortunately, I didn't really know what I did want - other than a chance to go out somewhere dressed.
However, there was no hint of either these subjects last night. I got there around nine o'clock and was immediately greeted by Michelle, the organiser and introduced around. A couple of the girls (which is how they described themselves, although it's not something I'm especially comfortable with) - Jane and Rachel - almost immediately took me under their respective wings and spent most of the evening chatting to me about various different things. But not cars and football.
I also chatted with a few other girls, but it was mainly Jane and Rachel.
The TG's there were mostly older than me and a few younger and they ranged from extremely convincing to not at all passable and there were both tv's and ts's. Clothing choices ranged from smart skirt and blouse outfits to tarty miniskirts. But, it really wasn't about passability or anything like that. It was about a place to be where they could feel happy, safe and comfortable and able to wear whatever they liked. And, as such, it's a complete success.
So, yeah. A good night and I'll be going again.
|Wednesday, January 21st, 2009|
I'm going out en femme this evening. I believe I mentioned that there was a TG Meeting Group around here. And I was planning to go to it next week. Well, it appears that there's going to be some kind of birthday bash going on tonight and so I've changed all my plans and I'm going to rush around like a blue-arsed fly this evening when I get home (I don't finish here until 6.00! Argh!)
I'm a bit nervous because I've not done one of these TG Social things for a long time. This is despite the fact that I'm almost guaranteed a positive reception there.
Now I just need to decide what to wear! What a dilemma! Current Mood: nervous
|Monday, January 19th, 2009|
Latest website update.
Photos! More girly pictures of MEEEEEE!
Some fairly old ones, some not very good ones and some showing how fat I got. And some showing how much weight I lost. And one with a very cute cat.
Which is pretty much it for the easy updating stuff on the website. Now I've got to actually think about what to do. Anyone got any suggestions?
|Sunday, January 18th, 2009|
Another early morning
I was awake at five this morning. Which isn't a good thing, because, on the whole, I'd rather be sleeping. But, it did give me a chance to do something useful.
So, I've updated the look of Ellen's website
. It very much follows the look of the main page
with some slight differences. But, it looks so much better than it used to. And, hey! No more Comic Sans! And there is a new picture on the front page.
Not much of the text has changed - although I have added the new biography page that I wrote for The Crossdresser's Wife
and a bookshop page.
Please have a look and let me know what you think. Thanks. Current Mood: tired
|Thursday, January 15th, 2009|
I've written a piece that is going to become part of the new-look Ellen's website when I finally get around to updating it which, should, hopefully, be in the not too distant future. It came about because I came across a website called 'The Crossdresser's Wife' which is, as you would perhaps expect, a website written by the wife of a crossdresser. One of the things she asked for was for people to write a piece about their experiences (either as crossdresser or as a friend/partner of same). I decided that it'd be a good thing to do. So I did it. And it's a here
. Go. Read. Let me know what you think. Let 'The Wife' know what you think.
|Thursday, January 8th, 2009|
Looking for group - LJ Knows All!
I have decided that this year (it's not a resolution! I don't do resolutions!) I'm going to get out more dressed. This is at least partly down to my sexy, slimmed-down appearance! (Although Christmas hasn't helped that...)
I've been looking for groups in Newcastle and I'm finding it really pretty difficult. There was one - Newcastle TG & Friends whose website doesn't seem to have been updated for the last two years. I've dropped the organiser an email, but I'm not holding out much hope.
So, does anyone know of any North East England (preferably Newcastle, but I do have a car...) based support groups or meetings?
|Sunday, October 26th, 2008|
|Tuesday, August 5th, 2008|
|Monday, June 16th, 2008|
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|Friday, June 13th, 2008|
"This goes here, and that goes there, and that - BOOOOINNNNGGGG!"
There's been an interminable argument against Transgendered folk using public bathrooms assigned to the gender of their destination. You don't often hear from men going hysterical over female-to-male bois using their bathrooms. But when it comes to the ladies room, a call to arms has been issued and the fortress is to be bulwarked at all costs.
Yes, there are women who are genuinely cool and could care less who comes into A PUBLIC SPACE (NOT their personal space), as long as the person in question is respectful and attends to her business at hand.
Yes, there are transgender "girls" who are married with wives and kids, and are devout heterosexuals who get excited looking at Playboy magazines.
But to the Ladies who feel decent civilization is on the verge of extinction when transgender folk use the PUBLIC SPACE you call your own:
Get. Over. Yourselves.
I'm not interested in women, and even if I were, the least alluring place to appreciate women would be in a public restroom. Women, you know what I'm talking about.
If there's any danger of anything happening at all, it would be me, dressed as a woman, in a room filled with big hairy grunting men with either freshly washed hands or their cocks hanging halfway out, or better yet: both.
Women, do yourselves a favor. If you want to save civilization and protect your husbands and boyfriends, you want me in your restroom.
|Sunday, May 25th, 2008|
I have inserted a new avatar of me. I hope that you like it.
|Monday, March 31st, 2008|
here's some recent camwhoring, moar in mah lj...
got mah hair cut too!( oh yes, there are moar, various hairstyles + outfitsCollapse )
In other news, I've been considering transition, and have been living somewhat androgynously - girl's hair and clothes every day for many moons. I am starting to wonder if I am not just a pretty boy who likes wearing girls' clothes all the time. I like not having body hair but also like my boy parts and even my flat chest, so hmmm... I need to lose weight right now, but other than that dun feel like changing my body.
|Tuesday, March 25th, 2008|
Will someone please help me out?
Finally I got the house all to myself again! This hasn't happened once since Christmas. Everybody is gone and although I have a ton of work to do. I'm taking full advantage of this oppertunity. So I've took a few pics. I've grown my hair out and hope to try to do something with it soon and I've got my ears pierced too since my last pics. But why do I still look like such a boy? I've gained alot of weight in the past year. I guess my metabolism is changing. Plus I've quite smoking and a few other bad habits I had. So I've lost my girly figure I've always had, and it really shows in my face. But I'm sure there's ways around this but when I see myself in a picture all I see is boy! I'm missing something and I need some help figuring it out. Current Mood: confused
|Tuesday, March 18th, 2008|
Naughty and Edgy
Thought I don't mind being called a crossdresser or transvestite, I like the latter. There's something naughty about it and I am drawn to edgy experiences. I do know about the negative connotations of transvestite because the medical establishment created it. Some do not like transvestite because of this bit of fact. I have read about transvestites living in past decades and I honor them as my forebearers.
Gennee Current Mood: nostalgic
|Monday, February 11th, 2008|
Here i am!I'm a biological male,but i want to live full-time as a women.I consider myself to be an androgyne too,in the sens that sometimes i really feel like a women,and sometimes i really feel like a men(but not so often).I also feel like some kind of mixture of gender...Is there anyone like me here?:)